Hi Euphrasia,

I don't know if this will help you at all, but maybe the mistakes you have made in the past, you will prevent from happening in the future. Remember, life is a learning experience, and you cannot look at past mistakes, and beat yourself up. You cannot change the past, only learn from it. Learning how to learn from those mistakes, and not dwelling on them could be a good start for you.
Best of luck,

SongBird