Hi everyone,

I have been really struggling with my feelings over the past couple of days. I have been on an emotional roller coaster. I am struggling with how to let go and accept the fact that he doesn't wan't to be with me anymore, and that we're never going to be together again. I am still in love with him, and it's hard because he's so over me.
We have someone coming to look at the house this week, but this is still going to be such a long process before I can start moving on with my life, and the hard part hasn't even begun because as hard as it is continuing to live together, it's going to be even harder once I'm all alone and I don't see him or hear from him again. I keep thinking about the holidays and how I'm going to get through them, and how the day of the closing I'm going to have to sit across the table and sign away my house to someone else, and that is going to be when I lose the house and my relationship, we're going to go our separate ways, to two different homes,and it was only 3 years ago that we signed on the house and had some many dreams and we were so happy together. I miss not have his son around too. It's just SOOO lonely. I can't understand how two people can be so happy and in love, and then it just goes away.
I know that I deserve better, but I don't know how to let go of him so that I can love someone else and be able to trust the next person and not get hurt again. The pain I feel is just so overwhelming and exhausting. It's every minute of the day, from the time I wake up until the time I go to bed. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't work. It's terrible. I don't want to hurt like this anymore. Please give me some advice.

Deedee