   Hey (((Deedee))). I agree (again) with jerrymichele. Right now you are surrounded by the remnants of your relationship - everything a constant reminder of what was. It is going to be rough going through this process; however, going through this process is going to help you grieve your loss and accept the finality of the desolution of your relationship. Once the papers on the house are signed and you are in your new home, you will begin to feel the relief and it will be easier for you to focus on your future. Try not to dwell on what might have been or even on future relationships, etc. - by the time you get to that point, you will be a different person. I know that this is a horribly painful thing - been there myself. For now, concentrate on doing whatever you need to do (therapy, etc.) to get you through the process of finalizing this relationship and situation - grieve it, bury it, then move on with your new life.
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"I walked a mile with Pleasure; she chattered all the way, But left me none the wiser for all she had to say. I walked a mile with Sorrow and ne'er a word said she; But oh, the things I learned from her when Sorrow walked with me!"
(Robert Browning Hamilton; "Along The Road")
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