hu everyone, im a new member here, i was brosing the net getting information on ocd, for about 3 years now i have known that i have ocd or traits of ocd, i have never been diagnosed, i think partly becaused im ashamed of some of the thoughts that plague my mind from time to time, when i was about 10 years old i had my first episode, now 23 and after two years of college i find myself having another episode, i feel like im living in hell, i get bad disgusting and unwanted thoughts in my head and they leave sometimes for a bit, i wake up at night lately in the middle of a panic attack, its funny cause i know this comes and goes but its tough to fight it, but im glad to see web sites like this, i actually just finished my mental health and addictions worker diploma and you know i wish i could help myself, im a counter. Right now im on here cause its helping to take my mind off of things, its funny too how you can see something on tv thats disturbing and then a day later you cant get out of bed because you think its happening to you or your causing it, im going to see my doctor tommorow to get put back on paxil, i have to say that for me it helps, anyways i just think its wonderful how caring you people seem, its scary as hell but it helps knowing we are not alone. Its wierd cause in a minute il go and try to rock and count myself to sleep, anyways i dont really have a question or a concern but id like to hear from anyone with their stories and any advice, thanks

tkennedy