I can some what relate to your feelings. I dont have cancer but did have a cancer scare and might have one once again. I had to have scrotum surg and they found out that what i had was not scar tissue not a huge deal just make it hard to have kids which at the time not the coolest but could manage. I just broke up with my girlfriend that i was going to ask to marry me with the week we broke up. then pain from my scrotum came back in a diff spot and now have to go back in to surg but there was no scarring there before but lumps have formed. I need help from someone really really bad yesterday and i kept calling diff ppl i know and thought were my friends but not one of them even answered their phone for me. I tried to text and same thing said i need a fav really bad please help and again not one person cared. so to be honest i said screw them im finding new ones ones that i can count on. its kinda helping and hurting at the same time have trouble finding new friends but its fun meeting new ppl. Id say get out and find those new ppl forget the old ones. There are always ppl that care you almost just dont know until your gone, I OD on coke not that long ago and was in the hosp found out that many ppl really did care they were just to busy in there life to really show it to me. Hang in there way cooler ppl will come along, well thats what im hoping for the both of us