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Originally Posted by fallenangel337
I was thinking today how things would be so much easier if I didn't like T. 
I wouldn't trade my T for the world, and I love the relationship we have, but I've noticed that at times I'm hesitant to bring something up because I don't want to come across as "crazy" to her. I'm so protective of our relationship, and I feel like maybe some things would be easier if I didn't like her.
Thoughts? Has anyone else ever gotten this thought before? |
I can so relate!!! My T and I have had multiple conversations about this, it's one of the reasons I haven't fully 'let go' in session - I'm afraid T will see what I consider this really ugly side to me. T said we have a really good rapport right now, and that I'm scared of ruining that - true! T has told me to be more 'unreasonable' in therapy and not to try to please her all the time, but it's hard, because I was always punished for being unreasonable.
I'll be discussing this very topic more with T this evening - it's our first double session, and I have to tell T that I realized that I'm scared she will end up resenting me if she's worn out after a long session, or that I'm making her day longer and am taking away time from her personal life. Ugh, why do we make everything so complicated?
fallenangel