Well, I've got a problem, and I'd like some help, if any of you can.....
I am going to be subbing again, after over 20 years teaching full time.
The new superintendent is "reorganizing" the school system. I could have, and was in the process of applying for a new position that he created - a departmental teacher leader. But, between condition, which I didn't even know for sure I had yet, but, was pretty sure; just not diagnosed, and certainly not treated for yet, interferred. On top of that, I was very sick, physically this past summer, when I was supposed to apply. I spent a day in the hospital, and got many medical tests throughout the summer. I've finally got meds that are controlling the pain, but, we don't know what's wrong yet. So, I couldn't apply. Long story short, I lost my position and I'm now back to being a sub. And I'm heartsick over it.

I have always known that I need structure in my life. This being a sub means I'll be getting a phone call at 6:30 am and I'll be told where I'm going and what I'll be "teaching" each day of the week. There will be no structure at all.

My anxiety is rising just thinking about it. It's been years since I've been a sub. And just take a minute, and remember what YOU used to do when you had a sub in high school! And I teach in the inner city!

So, can anyone give me any suggestions that you may have as to how to deal with this situation? I don't mean as far as teaching goes. I have my little book of tricks for when a teacher doesn't leave a lesson plan. I'm talking about how to handle not having any structure at all for the rest of the year? The very thought of it is mind boggling!

Peace!