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I've not seen my actual T for the summer. Now I'm back but she's on break. She's almost back, I think.
I REALLY want to get something out of therapy.
All this time I feel like I haven't so much... I dunno.
I have trouble talking in therapy. And I don't know about trusting someone like that... it scares me to death! Especially since the letter she will write to the university could determine the chances of me getting back to classes.
I don't know what to get out of therapy and I don't know how. I asked her once what I was supposed to be getting out of it, and she just said she was trying to get me to trust me. That's not enough... I want something to work on, I want to learn and get better! I've learned SO much from PC, I've learned so much from hurting myself and just going through things and my ever loving boyfriend. But T...
I don't even know where to begin...
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Yesterday I was so clever, so I want to change the world.
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.
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