I've had to begin seeing a new therapist since the one I last saw (about a yr ago) is out for another month or so. I wasn't real comfortable with her but she is the one who diagnosed the DA and DD for which I am extremely grateful. Previous counselors/therapists, psychologists and psychiatrists attributed everything to depression, anxiety and/or the ADHD. But the DA and DD is what is crystal clear to me, so I am thankful to know what is really going on. My primary care doctor second the diagnosis. YAY! A start.

Today was my second visit with her. I don't like her treatment style in that she talks so much about things I don't really get why she thinks they're relevant (such as she went off today about wondering how I could carry some juice and a snack in my purse because she believes it will ward off panic attacks). I still don't get WTH she was talking about with that, but you see what I mean. She just has weird ideas/opinions about somethings. However... when she hits the mark, she does it well.

I'm a bit claustrophobic. As in crowds, small rooms, rooms without windows, airplanes are a huge trigger for me, elevators, etc. I never knew why, they just are. She noted last week that I was claustrophobic but we hadn't talked about it (and I really never expected to). Today though she was asking about my childhood, growing up and what things happened that I really hated, frustrated or angered me. One thing led to another and I told her that my father would come home from work, pin me down to the floor and tickle me until I wet my pants. He thought this was funny. I would be in tears crying, would beg to stop, scream, etc. and he thought it was funny. I hated it. Therapist looks up at me and smiles and says "That's where your claustrophobia comes from." I thought about it a minute and realized she's right, the same panic from not being able to move is the same panic, all the same feelings, I have when I feel claustrophobic. I had no idea.

I really hope the progress keeps coming. She's two for two now on our sessions.