Good for you, Storm!
I too decided to quit yesterday, and posted it on here.
Also quitting smoking, since I seem addicted to the two in combination. I wanted that smoke this morning with my coffee, I must admit, but I now truly believe I am stronger than these addictions.
I too have f***ed up many relationships, and know that my life will truly be different without the addictions. The thought of that is a big scary question mark. As I've thought about quitting in the past, I have wondered , "Well, what will I do with myself all clean and sober and smoke-free???" I truly don't know! But it has to be an improvement, and so I'm paying attention to the advice here, like Raynaadi saying, "One step, one hour at a time."
It's a positive step.
Seeker