^ what would you say is way too much info? i haven't come across that anywhere, but then maybe i have different standards and am one of the culprits, lol.

i dont feel guilty about talking about pdoc or austin-T. i actually think pdoc would feel... proud(?) that i value him so much that i want to talk about him elsewhere. i know he would be touched. i try to express how grateful i am to him in session, but i do better with telling other ppl instead.

i don't mention things which they disclose which i know they would want to keep private - things they have told me only i know about them. so i do draw the line somewhere. and obviously, austin-T isn't really called "austin", nor is he, or has he ever been (to my knowledge) a pornstar .

talking about them here actually strengthens my relationship with them, because i get feedback and it reinforces that they are good people who are worth trusting. when i type out all the silly things pdoc does (e.g., his stupid jokes), it makes me remember those moments and keeps it more alive later on. it's important to me that i reflect on the relationship, the uniqueness of what we share, because it reminds me that there is more to therapy than doom and gloom, and that i have 2 ppl who really do care about me.

i know if i printed this post out and showed it to pdoc it would be something he would treasure immensely, because it is something he has worked so hard towards fostering.