I liked her! She was great!
I walked into the office and it was vey cozy and homey (But so was the reiki, no-show t's office). Her room had a couch (very comfy) and she sat in a big chair near me. This is important to me b/c of the distance I feel in my t's office. She was a good age- probably about my age-ish. Maybe younger. But she did seem experienced. We talked about a lot. I felt comfortable and very not judged by her. We started off with what worked and what didnt work with my t. She really understood why I was leaving and said my t is probably a "behaviorist" who doesnt work with trauma. I even explained that I felt like I was cheating on m t by being in the room with her.
Then we talked about what is going in with me. She explained a lot about dissociation to me that I didnt understand before. She explained the difference between dissociation and day-dreaming (as my t had called it). And we talked a lot about trauma. I did not get into specifics, but we talked about triggers. Triggers throughout my day and the times I dissociate and why. She suggested I notice my triggers throughout the day and write it down. We talked about schema therapy and she said she does that kind of therapy but doesnt particularly use the schema therapy terms. She did say she isnt a psychodynamic therapist and isnt trained that way. I dont know it this is a good or bad thing. She did say she does a lot of trauma work and csa work. I can imagine myself feeling comfortable with her to talk about this stuff eventually, but definitely not yet. I didnt get into specifics. It was easier to talk about things I had talked with my previous t about, but most of it I had written down. oh, we talked about the bpd diagnosis, how I felt about it and how I felt my previous t saw me because of it. I felt that my entire therapy was based on this. I had been helpful in some ways but I feel as if I am being seen as a diagnosis first and human being second. That I get this behavioral approach to bpd behaviors. I feel like my t doesnt like me b/c of the bpd and then I cried a little. She was very gentle and explained more about trauma and the way I developed as a child in response to that.
I could go on and on. But I liked her and mad another appt. She is away for part of next week for a conference, my monday is not available and was booked and the rest of the week. So.....monday the 5th is my next appt with her. Which is fine. I called and cancelled my t's appointments through that 1st wk in october.
I am not sure now whether I should use my insurance appts to see the other t's. My next appt is with my friend's t tomorrow at 10. And this is the only t that is a little far (out of my immediate area). Im considering cancelling. What do you think?
Anyway, this sounds good, she did explain a lot about CBT and its relation to the present, but it doesnt sound like she does strictly cbt. She did use the word eclectic.
So.....talk to me.....what do you all think?
I was hoping she would say she has some kind of psychodynamic approach. But that is no this t. Other than that, I liked her a lot. Smart, knowledgable and NOT put off by the bpd thing. Focused mostly on trauma. I felt a connection. And I felt she understood me.
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