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Originally Posted by Yesterdays
I just hate myself sometimes. A little bit of a reason why: Our house is a mess. No one cleans up, no one does anything, and that includes me. My room is full of crap, it's a complete mess and I can't stand being in there. Every other room in the house is the same. It makes me so stressed, so depressed. We've tried cleaning but it doesn't stay that way for long...
And my family gets fast food every night, even though I'm already a fat cow.
I'll never be pretty, I'll never be normal, and sometimes I feel like no matter how hard I try to pretend I'm fine, I'll never be okay.  |
Depression and self esteem go hand in hand, skip along and hold tight to each other. I have the same problems. I agree with the others, if you can break it down into smaller parts, and reward yourself for completing those smaller parts, it will be easier to deal with.
Motivation seems like a forgein concept when you are depressed. (I've had to learn more about it with the fact I am ADHD, and if something is not interesting to me, I have no interest or motivation to do it)
It's hard to find the energy to do or care about it. There are times where I have just had to get through the "next 10 minutes" let alone try to plan ahead! But as you do manage to get parts done, you will feel better and keep moving forward!
Good luck, hang in there and know that we understand and have been there and support you (OOH! Run-on sentance!)
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