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Originally Posted by Lisa Michelle
I had an eating disorder assessment today. I mentioned to her that I have concerns I could have BPD, and she said to me that after talking to me for an hour she didn't think I did (they will look further into this on the next visit or next few visits). She said that, typically, a person with BPD will be in denial so if you suggest to them that they're borderline they'll tell you they're not.
I just want to know how you can "tell" a person is borderline by chatting to them? Would any of you say or think that it's obvious that you have borderline disorder? What is the typical personality like?
I was "normal" in the assessment. I answered her questions. I cried a few times. I don't see how she would either agree or disagree I have BPD. But maybe it's obvious when you talk to people with it???? What do you think?
I'm very concerned and possibly obsessed that I MUST get the right diagnosis, whether that's borderline or not. I won't let them just pass over it without proper examiniation. I've read several websites and one book on borderline and I just feel it explains me so much. I'm terrified I'm wrong because then I feel that it's just ME, that it's not a disorder, that I choose and want to be this way.
I've been diagnosed with anorexia. But I really don't feel it's "enough" to explain all of my issues.
Any advice or info is really appreciated, I'm only new to finding out about borderline and it's still entirely possible I don't have it... but I think it's important to really know myself what borderline is before I let someone tell me I don't have it.
Thanks,
Lisa x
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Hi Lisa,
Ahhhhh the dx process........stressful.......I hear what you are saying.....
For me, I was in denial for years even with the dx and getting therapy......so I don't know if you can tell straight away if someone has BPD. For me, I had weeks of therapy, my first hospital admission, personality testing, PTSD testing and so on.......all up the dxs took 13 weeks of intensive observation......
Anorexia, or eating disorders are a component of Borderline, but everyone is different in severity, so if you feel that anorexia is not the only issue you are dealing with, push it until you get a researched educated answer from your treatment team. I had both a psychologist and psychiatrist in the dx process......
I hope I have helped.......ask all the questions you need to of your therapists......you are in charge of your treatment.......it may or may not be BPD you are dealing with, but if you have doubts, trust that instinct and follow it.......
We are here to support and feel free to ask me more questions......I was dx BPD/schizoeffective/PTSD 15 years ago.......
Take good care, Lisa and speak real soon,
Michah