Thank you Tishie and Otter.

I wasn't raised in a conservative home, I was never taught there is shame in sex or sexuality, and was educated and told to never feel shame for it.

I'm not a hundered percent sure were this guilt and shame comes from, I wonder if it comes from the abuse I suffered as a child...

lol as for age I'm 19 going on 20,

I think I need to change my way of thinking of myself, I am very self concious and always very anxious..

lol I want to make this reply longer, but I have to run to the store, I'll be sure to look back later and add more

Peace to all and much thanks
Sparrow