Michah, thank you so much! I've been feeling so silly for "pushing" this issue. I keep being told I'm fine. I mean, nobody even thought I was anorexic. I told my friend tonight and he was like "what?" but he already knew (I'd only called it an ED, though), it's real strange. He plays what I have down SO much that I sometimes think he's right. And other people, too. So then I begin to question myself and just think I'm not ill, I'm just a crap person or whatever.
You've (at least temporarily) given me the confidence to keep pushing this. I DO feel as though there's a problem and you're right, I'm in charge of my own treatment, if I'm not going to put myself first then who is? I deserve the best treatment and that involves getting a correct diagnosis.
You've also reassured me that a diagnosis can't be done within an hour! So her comment, although it might true in the end, it's impossible for her to know yet. So I will keep on with this and find out the truth, even if it's that I don't have it.
Again thankyou, I feel very reassured. I began feeling a bit like maybe I WANTED to find something wrong with me and was picking the one I "liked best" (my mum suggested that) but really I'm just looking out for myself, making sure I get the best chance possible at recovery. But before I recover I need to know what I'm recovering from, you know?
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