A lot of interesting responses here. I got into a daily routine of drinking 5-8 beers each day (sometimes I'd skip a day), smoking 4-5 fat cigars as I drank my beers and at the end of the day, I'd either fall asleep drunk on the floor or if I was'nt all that sleepy, I'd take an Atarax (a powereful antihistamine) and be completely knocked out within a half hour. The following morning and after a restless night, I'd wake up sick, hungover and full of anxiety so I'd take a benzo and a few hours later, have a few beers...and a few more. Then out came the cigars and I'm be puffing away. That has been my life for the past few weeks but I prayed for God to help me stop and just like the last time (I was an alcoholic several years ago) he freed me from this demon and I know he will come through for me this time as well. This is day one with no alcohol and no cigars. I feel great and have no desire to drink this evening...tommorow or ever.

- GreyGoose