I don't think it's really so much of a worry that I'm exposing his identity of anything. I would NEVER do anything like that. It's just that there is a certain intimacy in that room that really goes both ways. And that feels personal...between myself and him. I would venture to say that I know his "little things" (non-verbals) quite well...maybe even just as well as some of his personal acquaintances do. It feels wrong to talk publicly about his special things...things that make him who he is...parts of his human side that he shared with me. So I don't think that I will do that any longer. I do really think that the reason I want to talk about all of that is because I'm so afraid of forgetting. I try to keep the memories alive because they remain so meaningful to me. But I wouldn't want to cheat any of the shared intimacy of our brief time together as client and therapist. I would want to protect that more than visual cues in my mind.

In saying that, I don't think he would be opposed to my getting support on here by discussing our relationship and my feelings for him.