Thank you very much AAAAA .

I do intend on writing letters to her .
And the odd phone call if something serious comes up .
And I shall give the voice chat a try .

Guess I will just have to put up with not actually being with her .

And I really am trying to take everything she says at face value , but there is always the more negative interpretations of what she is saying in the back of my head and I can't just remove them .
Or atleast , I don't know how to .

Thank you all , I feel less confused about this whole thing now .