here i go again...sorry i just need to write it all out out of my head maybe to a place where someone might care... i hate being sad i hate it it drives me crazy. there is nothing more in this world i want then to be happy, but i can't.
I am alone, always alone, moved to a new place don't really know anyone. i have no one to turn too, i have no reason to have friends maybe i just, need to suck it up. its what i have done for the last 8 years of my life....i am so sick of hearing people come down on people with mental illnesses. that all we have to do is find Jesus or just making fun of that in general. it just makes me madder than ever, makes me feel like crap like i just make this all up. this makes me want to yell at them and just tell them maybe they need to find Jesus, etc. but i don't i just keep it all inside. i hate this new insurance because it won't cover my meds, or a p- doc or anything cause i have a preexsisting condition...everything i just am sick of everything. i am just happy i have a job i love. that is the only good thing in my life right at this moment. ill end on that positive note. at least i love my job