that sounds like a plan, I know I have gone in before wanting to talk and never did, maybe I can just write it down and hand it to her?? Why do I find it soo hard to talk about, why can I not admit defeat and that I need help??

its so easy to say it here, but when I get tehre, I always make excuses for things and tell her everything is normal.. I have known her as my dr since I was a child, why is this so difficult for me. I cannot admit it to anyone IRL, even those whom I trust the most, and trust is not something I do easily, or even as I rule, there is no one I trust completely, but those I trust the most, I still cannot turn to them and say help me.

I think I will write everything down, and I f I chicken out again, just hand it to her, and maybe she will help then