((((((((((eskielover))))))))))

You sound soo much like me!!! I know exactly what you mean about being the strong one, and never crying.

Glad to hear you go it out though, I think for people like us, that is half the battle is being able to cry and get that emotion out! keep it up

as for the grief, it will come when it is meant to, and maybe its just not meant to come. I knw I will not be grief striken when my mother dies, as horrible as it sounds, I think she causes half my issues. I will be sad, bnut not stricken, ya know??

(((((((((((((((((9eskie)))))))))))))))))

You are doing well!!!! keep it up