vacations...what more can possibly be said?

integration....well can i throw my $0.02 in? i'm not working towards it...i've always felt that i am happy the way i am...my happy little sysytem works okay for me...its fairly manageable and i am comfortable with it. i don't want to lose all of my parts...i enjoy the child like happiness of mikey, my child-like peep, and some of the other peeps and their roles.

so am instead working on being able to react and handle things as an adult today..in a safe manner. i can still use the peeps if i need to but maybe they won't have to be a first response. they aren't being told to go away and i'm still nuturing them...hey they have been around for a long time...

i imagine that at some point perhaps i won't need them and l maybe just fade (egads) away on their own and that will be gentle and okay...some of them have already done that.

my t has been really good about listening to my ideas about this. she immediately went to the "all peeps must die" line but i told her thats not what i want. i like the wonder, joy and happiness of mikey, the intellect and wisdom of another, and so one...(and yes i realize thatthey are all within me...for those not DID). she has let me guide the process because after all it is my system.

so tree maybe you could suggest something or some other type of arrangement with your t...that isn't so stressful. it's scary to be different from what is familiar but in some ways what i have to remember that this process was born out of hell to protect me so changing it may not necessarily be a bad thing.

we're here for ya tree...ya need ya ask.

stumpy & da peeps (or maybe the peepettes) sounds like a bad band