((((((((((((((((((((Tree))))))))))))))))))

I know how lonely, empty and confused I feel when T is (literally) unreachable, and when we have been working on something difficult and he goes away right in the middle, I dont how I am going to get through it. Sometimes I honestly dont know how I get through the days, and to think any further than the end of the day just fills me with fear and intense sadness. It makes me feel completely alone, and nothing seems to help. I havent done any integration work with T, but I do understand how you are feeling without him being there.

I am so sorry you are feeling like this