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Can I reframe for you?? (I'll assume the answer is yes )

You have worked so hard making the really difficult decision to start looking for another T...no matter how good or bad our T is, leaving is still a HUGE DEAL. You thought about it and researched it. You stuck it out when it seemed like the appointments would never work out. You went to FTT and were honest and open, even though it was really hard to talk about the things you talked about. You left yourself open to all of the possibilities...continuing with FTT, making another appointment with your T, seeing your friend's T...when it's so much easier to do a black/white thing and just make a decision.

You woke up this morning and went with your gut. Yesterday was hard, and you don't NEED to do it again today. FTT sounds like a good match, and you already have another appointment with her. You have the awesome, awesome gift of a sleepy 2 year old (you and I know how short-lived that sweet little time is!) and you gave you AND HER the gift of time together, just loving and being loved.

You've done amazing things, and it's okay to let yourself REST now. I tend to push and push and push and push myself, and sometimes T will tell me to "just float". Stop working, and pushing, and thinking. Just be.

Now is your time to just "be". You have a break from desk T. You have an appointment lined up with FTT. Snuggle with your kids, bake cookies, listen to music, journal, enjoy the fall colors (if you have them where you are!), read a good book...you deserve a ton of rest and love and self-care after a job well done.

Instead of being disappointed in yourself, look at everything you've done. You are amazing. Give yourself a big hug and know that you deserve it