My Support Forums - View Single Post - I am feeling so sad and lonely today........

lynn09 · Sep 23, 2009, 03:53 PM

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Originally Posted by twinmommy38

I felt so much better yesterday.
I am so very, intensley sad today.
I must go to work. I must get my assignments done for school.
I am procrastenating so much with my school work.
I do not want to do anything.
I did not sleep well last night at all. Waking up at 1:30 and forcing myself to stay in bed until 4:30.
Strange dreams.
Feel like everyone can see how distraught I am more than I see it myself.
I just feel like crying. I feel like a loser and nobody likes me. I look funny and am annoying. I hurt so much inside, I do not know what to do. I want relife and want this feeling of intense sadness to go away.

I just do not want to do anything but dissapear for a while.
This hurts so much and I am not able to find the words to dicribe any of it.

I think you described your feelings very well, (((((twinmommy38))))). I'm glad you were able to get your car fixed - at least that's one thing you can mark off the list. I really admire you - working and going to school even though you are struggling with depression - that's a lot to demand of yourself. By all means, if you can cry - then cry away. Crying releases endorphines (feel-good hormones) into your system and can help alleviate your depression to some extent. Be kind to and gentle with yourself - treat yourself as you would treat a good friend who was feeling the way you do now. There is much in life to cause us grief, so there is no need for you to berate yourself - you need to be your staunchist supporter - give yourself the credit that you most certainly are due. When things get too rough, let us know - we'll be here for you.