Wow pachy, Tree, Bloom and SAWE. I really thought I was majorly screwing up here. OK- I think you are right. I have taken on a lot. Thanks for the re-framing tree. I cannot believe I am leaving her. I dont think I would have been able to consider this if she hadnt gone away on vaction. It gave me time to think. Im glad you said I didnt need to do it again....I also push and push myself, especially if I planned on doing it and i was curious about how she would have been and what kind of t. so- I "floated" today and enjoyed my little sweetness. She will be in school tomorrow- it is enough for the week.

I will just see ftt on oct 5th and leave it at that. WAIT! I have an appt on monday with vacaton t! This is actually the one I was going to cancel. She seems like more of a short term t. And her website has a lot about life coaching (I dont exactly know what that is..but it sounds more superficial than what I am looking for).

I love your suggestions, Tree! We will bake cookies, listen to music, listen to my kids play music , journal, and the fall colors here are BEAUTIFUL! Floating sounds like something I can try- try to just "be".

Deep breath..........