Michah, thank you so much! I've been feeling so silly for "pushing" this issue. I keep being told I'm fine. I mean, nobody even thought I was anorexic. I told my friend tonight and he was like "what?" but he already knew (I'd only called it an ED, though), it's real strange. He plays what I have down SO much that I sometimes think he's right. And other people, too. So then I begin to question myself and just think I'm not ill, I'm just a crap person or whatever.People always play down what they don't understand or if it frightens them. I know I have played down my own illness at times......at great cost to me. Do not question what you experince. Just because you do not have a formal dx yet, does not mean that it does not exist for you, babe......what you feel is real.......and without sounding cynical, it matters little whether others believe you. We would like to think that if people love us that it is given that they will unedrstand, and short of that, at least support us unconditionally. They can do that to a degree, but it is my experience that my journey is my own. It was very isolating at first, but then I worked out that I would rather be alone than have people in the process that did not honour it. There are still people that do not honour my process, but they are family......not so easy to walk away from.....but I do practice a little distance and acceptance and forgiveness.......you are on a terrifying and exhilarating journey of the spirit......and no-one can question that....

You've (at least temporarily) given me the confidence to keep pushing this. I DO feel as though there's a problem and you're right, I'm in charge of my own treatment, if I'm not going to put myself first then who is? I deserve the best treatment and that involves getting a correct diagnosis.Absolutely! Whenever you doubt, talk about it.......we are here. You show great insight, you are following your instincts and you are logical.......therapists love logic, especially psychiatrists

You've also reassured me that a diagnosis can't be done within an hour! So her comment, although it might true in the end, it's impossible for her to know yet. So I will keep on with this and find out the truth, even if it's that I don't have it. That is good! Keep going.......

Again thankyou, I feel very reassured. I began feeling a bit like maybe I WANTED to find something wrong with me and was picking the one I "liked best" (my mum suggested that) but really I'm just looking out for myself, making sure I get the best chance possible at recovery. But before I recover I need to know what I'm recovering from, you know?