Just got back from T - skeksi, she basically told me to do what you said, to allow myself to cry as much as I need to, even if I feel the urge to cry when I'm picturing myself in my 'safe place' - T said it makes sense that I would want to be in a safe place before I cry.

T asked if I was up for more EMDR - I said I was scared of more bad feelings coming to me, but T thought it was worth it to instill the positive cognition - I trust my T, so we did it. I think the EMDR worked better for me this time, I came down in my negative cognition rating and felt better about the positive cognition, though we're still not done processing this one. T also made sure to ground me at the end.

I do feel better - still fragile, which T and I discussed, but not like I'm going to burst into tears at any moment, and I'm not feeling hopeless and worthless, like I was. T told me she was glad I called her, and to definitely call her if I need her before our next session. T also said that I'm working hard and doing good work.

Thanks so much, everyone - I have a feeling I'll be coming back to revisit this post when I'm down, for all the kind words and suggestions in it.