I am glad you got in to see your T tonight. I think sometimes especially trauma victims, it is hard to actually know if we feel relaxed or if we don't feel anything. Sometimes feeling nothing is actually dissociation, a numbed out thing. My T really had to work with me on that before we did the EMDR. My whole life I didn't know I even dissociated to a more stronger degree than most people. Now I see the signs and my T who works with a lot of trauma cases knows it even before I do. She does a grounding exercise at the end, as a way to calm down and end the session and to make sure I am okay to drive. ( I lose feeling in my feet) Sometimes we do two if needed. If you are feeling spacey, make sure you tell your T right then, they can help you with that. :-) The first time I did EMDR I didn't feel anything till later that night ( I was too uptight and nervous the first time). I had to come in the next morning for an emergency appointment, my husband actually called my T because I had some extreme flashbacks that night.
Now that you are more relaxed and confident you can handle what come up, I think it seems like this will work well for you. I am excited for you.