I am wondering. hmmmmmmmmmmm. is this really where i put something like this? oh well it is here anyways.

I am pretty sure that only a handful of you know about what is really going on. I didn't wnna pitty party for my time here, but it has come to a point where I just can't handle this alone. So it's like I am kinda comming out of the closet lol.

I have Polysycstic Kidney Disease (PKD). Several sycsts are on the kidneys and over time the kidney swells and quits and one of 2 things happen. 1 you get a transplant. 2 you die. I have less than a year left. I refuse a transplant because I could be taking something away from a child or somebody that won't need another one in a few years that can live thier life and really accomplish something. My family is upset with me. They keep saying that I am worthy of a transplant. Just because I can't see it doesn't really mean that it's not true. I don't know. I think that I have lived my life and I should give someone a chance to do the same.

ok I am done talking about it. Please don't PM me with the whoa is me stuff or links to places where i can read more info...........i have done all that. Love to all and take care.