Pachy: I used to (and still do in times of stress and failure) HATE my mother for what she did. But now I am really beginning to see that she was very unstable
SAWE: I am beginning to see it too, unfortunately there is still much more resentment and sadly, hatred, in me for her than understanding at this point. It is something I hope for very much.

Pachy: It is quite an education to see reasons for what people do, within a society that has so much condemnation instead of comprehension. That is another thing that I feel sets me apart from most of the rest of society, and for which at times I feel very afraid and alone.
SAWE: But Pachy!! To be able to see reasons is a wonderful thing! For myself, I count this as among the richest treasures I am gaining in therapy. Instead of just being in the trenches, swinging, I am beginning to form understanding, like the sentient being I am intended to be. You may be in the minority with it but you are not alone.