Thank you everyone for your replies. They are much appreciated. Much.

I have decided to go to therapy today.

I have decided to tell him how I feel--how I want to be myself and my fear of draining him by being so flat and depressed lately. And of him not liking me anymore.

I have also decided to bring the list I made and start working on it.

Thank you all for helping me make those decisions. And thank you for the hugs, encouragement, and caring you showed. Thank you. Thank you.

HUGS to you all!!!!!