I assume so because i certainly don't interact with anyone else nowadays to allow them to let me think i'm anything but competent.....hence my problem....i appear competent to so many other people but within myself i am nothing. I am nothing.

I don't want to think of bad memories growing up as they are completely useless now and not that significant in the grand scheme of things....

That is why i cut. I should just get over myself.

I really, utterly, truly, completely hate myself.

There is no greater hate.