I saw a new therapist who has labeled the things I have done for as long as I can remember. She says I dissociate. Until recently I didnt have a word for this and i just thought it is the way I am.

I try to hide it. Recently, my current therapist who I am leaving said to me "what happened there?" And she kept questioning me and I didnt know what to say and she wouldnt take my "I dont know" for an answer." This is not the first time this happened there, but the first time she made a comment.

I was talking about something, I dont remember what, I think I mentioned my son's name. Then she said to me "what was that." I knew I did something or said something. I vaguely know that. What she said was I stopped talking in the middle of a sentence and began talking about something entirely different. I was aware at some point that I felt confused and she was asking me what happened there. My children say I do the exact same thing as my t said. There are many many instances throughout my life where Im not sure what went on for short/long periods of time. I just thought this is the way things are and I should hide this from other people. And I can usually cover for missing something from a conversation or whatever.

I thought Id post here. So.....Im posting...thanks for reading......