Nah it's definately validated as everyone thinks that the work thing is totally ridiculous too but they're just not as bothered as me. I hate people that see a problem and yet do sod all about it. I am not a patient person and this job constantly asks me for almost saint-like patience levels!

As to getting to the real source of my anger - it is so deep this anger simply because it comes from an unlimited pit of hopelessness. This is only a tiny example of how crap everything created by humans is. It is a tiny fragmented example of the sullied, dirt-trodden world that we all have to live in and try and be happy with. I can't be happy with a life in a world that is so painfully slow and disjointed. I cannot understand how people can be happy with this, nor how they constantly expect me to be grateful and happy for something i genuinely see as a dirty smear.

I'm angry at myself for being me. I'm angry at myself for being born. What the heck was I thinking coming into existance? I'm angry that i have to sit in this body and that i'm so tied to my own weaknesses and flaws that i'm actually a classic example of the crap the world has created. I hate every weakness and flaw and want to smash them out of existance! Why should i have to accept imperfection in order to be 'happy'?

I have no way out of this. It is demoralising.