I woke up this morning and felt really bad, so bad I didn't even talk until I picked up dad and that was at about for this afternoon, I mean how I can I go on in life when all I think about is the one person that i love, I can't see her, I can't sms her, I can't visit her and its taking alot out of me my mind is racing with thoughts of her, is she thinking of me, is she worried about me, is she even upset that we arn't talking right now, those are the question that are ghetting to me and they are making me very paranoid, I start thinking what if she finds sum1 what if she forgets me what if she hates me and i just can't take it any more, she found out I tried to kill myself and she told me over the phine that I shouldn't get a downer or do sumthing stupid like go and kill myself over her and I am really starting to think that that might be the answer to my pain and suffering and Zack is all for it (y wouldn't he b). I'm just really sick and tired of the pain and anguish that I feel, I just wish that I could I end it all.