Rohag, I hate crying though. to me it's weakness. I know you are going to tell me that it isn't though. I do want to be selfish and take time for me...it's so hard though. Pastor...well he is great, but he is more of a spirtual counselor than anything else. So of course everything is centered around God.

Phoenix47...Thanks and I wish my husband would take more responsibilty. If I left anything up to him...life would fall apart even more. He is such a wild card.

Berries and fuzzy, lynn09 and pom.- thank you for the hugs and being there. My plate never seems to get empty.

it just continues to fill and fill. I am finally at my breaking point and I don't knwo what to do or where to go.