But Im on my own.... No one understand what Im going though.... Or dont want to understand..... No one is here for me.... No one..... I cant even undersand why I am trying other then I promised a mate I would see him again next year... Thats one of the main things that is keeping me going to and Im getting married.... But I have to wait another 243 days till I feel my friend again... How am I going to survice that.... I cant to this any more not on my own