I'm really sorry ginger... That's hard... I used to be afraid of being the last one awake as well but I knew why. I was afraid if I was the last one up that everyone would be gone when I woke. I was also afraid of being the first one awake and the last one up because I was afraid of what people might do while I slept...

(((((((((ginger))))))))))) I hope you have a t that you can talk to about this and I'm really sorry you are going through this, it must be really hard!