Austin-T was proud . but lol, he is such a task master he has already started texting me about the next assignment (even though he is away on a conference). i am so so so lucky pdoc thought to refer me to him, and that Austin-T has kept working with me. he normalises a lot of the OCD stuff i do, and just wants me to be able to make it work for me, not stop it completely. recently he has started gently nudging at me to try and get behind the scenes, so to speak, but i think he is doing it very slowly - getting a tiny morsel of info and then letting it go until the following week.

yah, i'm glad pdoc doesnt want me to move out just yet. i have had so much pressure put on me to do that before, and i think he's come around to see that i really need to believe i can do it before i just jump straight into it. a lot of our therapy lately has been about adjusting to feeling good again, as weird as that sounds. feeling good does feel overwhelming at times, without adding anything to the mix. i feel like i'm waiting for the side effects to wear off .

oh, thank you (((((SAWE))))). i will invite everyone over when i finally move out... so there's yer warning to start saving pennies for a flight over, ok?