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This is long and could be triggering...
So first I would like to say that I do have a doctor but he's a perv so I don't want to go see him and make my emotional problems worse unless I absolutely have to... Now on to the fainting and what not...
So ever since I was in elementary school I've suffered with an ED... In elementary school it wasn't technically on purpose but my mom worked long hours and got paid very little. We were on the free lunch program and I was so embarrassed of being poor that I never used it so I never ate at school. I knew how to cook my own food by the time I was 7 because my mom was never home to cook for us, once I caught a towel on fire I stopped cooking and would only eat about once every two days because I was terrified of cooking.
Once I got into middle school the ED became worse and intentional... I wanted to be down to 99 pounds (I'm 5'9) because I over heard my mom saying that that was the perfect weight. I ended up keeping this ED until I was 17 and ended up getting down to 102 (probably lower but I hardly ever weighed myself back than and 102 was the last time I weighed myself when I was skinny). When I met my husband he was eating fast food all the time and at first I wouldn't eat it but after getting the depo I started.
Than I started to over eat. I ended up gaining over 100 pounds and continued to over eat. Than in July 2008 my ED came back and I was on a 200 calorie a day diet. Because of this I ended up fainting and stopped breathing for close to 3 minutes from what I was told. My doctor told me that my heart nearly gave out because of the lack of protein and all... That was the first time in my life I had ever fainted. I soon after sought help for my ED and I am at a healthy weight but I eat more than I should probably. I eat so much junk food, just last night I ended up having 2 big bowls of ice cream and I can't even remember all the things I ate during the day.
So I wake up last night and go in the kitchen. After standing not even a full minute I ended up falling down and nearly fainter. I had to lay on the kitchen floor for about 5 minutes before I had enough strength to stand up. That is the purpose of this thread. I'm wondering if it could be possible that it is a blood sugar thing and if so does that mean I might have diabetes now since I do eat a lot of sweets and it still happens? If not any ideas on what this may end up being? I'm confused and worried, I don't want to die next time...
I know I should probably see my doctor about all of this but mostly I'm hoping to get some reassurance here so I wont have to see him and can wait until I get a new one! Any input or advice would be GREATLY appreciated!!!
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