Don't worry about your T. He chose his line to work with people like you and I serious doubt he has "better things to do". One of the sickest things about this disease is the way it talks us into believing that we should do everyone a favour and deny help when reality is the opposite.

Of course you should have had this appointment. Spiritual counselors are great but you need a different angle on your illness, even if everything does center on God Tae care of yourself, dearone.