But sometimes it hard to hang on to that... The main thing that is keeping me going at the min is I made a promise and I dont like braking promise.... That promise was to a friend.... I was working in Kavos - Greece not so long ago and I made a very good friend I told him about my cutting and everything and the day I left he said "I take it this is the last time Im going to see you because Im not sure you will be able to make it to next year" thats whats keeping me going.... To prove him wrong.... But I have to wait 243 days!! HOW CAN I DO THAT