I had lunch with a friend today, this was the friend who's t I cancelled She didnt care.

She suggested another reason I dont want to go see my t. I want my t to think I am doing OK. But she will see Im not doing so well with food and that I am trying to hide under a long sweater- which I will do. And she will know I am doing that. And she will start a conversation about being in the hospital and/or rehab. I dont feel strong enough for an argument with her. I have lost more weight and I look like it- especially since I havent seen her in a couple of weeks now.

That is a huge concern. I dont want to talk about this issue with her anymore. She gives me strictly behavioral solutions to a deeper problem. I cant listen to her solutions to this anymore. It makes me feel worse. I know I dont have to talk about anything I dont want to, but I dont want to go there or have to say so. And she will say this is why I would be leaving her.

Very insightful of my friend....sometimes I know something is true but it doesnt enter my consciousness until someone else says it.