(((((((((((((((((((((((tmac))))))))))))))))))))))) I can hear all the conflicting emotions you are feeling. That must be so hard. I don't know the specifics about your situation but it must have been a very hard decision to make. It does sound like you were trying to make the best one for your baby. I am so sorry that you are feeling this pain.

I hope you are able to keep from harming yourself. Are you seeing someone that you can talk to? With all that is going on you will probably need all the positive coping skills you have. Please try and be kind to yourself. You deserve it. Feel free to PM me anytime.



BB