Christina, I think I am responding to a different message of yours, but am not sure. I, too, have quit drinking, but it took it's toll in brain dysfunction. Medication did the rest. Anyway. Anger is good. It's depression pouring out of you instead of being held inside. Money from the government is good, even if it all goes to credit cards. At least the credit card payment is made. Not drinking is good but can sure make you irritated at the bar. Pay no attention to what people say when you run over them. It's their depression pouring out! And yes, your degree can help you. It may take awhile to see. PM me anytime. ~ your sister in depression ~ billieJ