{{{{{{{{Vet}}}}}}}} I understand perfectly how you feel about not being able to trust some people. I have trust issues. I have also been taken advantage of... not here, but on other boards.
I've felt upset because some people weren't banned immediately. I'm upset that there are no guidelines for membership...
but... we can't avoid these kind of people in the outside world, either. I've come to some peace realizing that. Here, for the most part, people are honest and truthful... so that fact has helped me.
You stand out to me in the fact that you had the courage to tell us that you had withheld some personal information. Not many have that kind of courage. You were strong enough to realize that if you were going to get Real Help, you had to come clean. That's a lot to be proud about!
(I'm going to break my "I feel... I think..." rule here) Take your break, you've earned it. Just use it to work on accepting what you feel guilty about and be good to yourself, ok? You're really not as bad as you think! There's got to be a whole lot of good in you because I agree with you most of the time!

Well... except when you're being hard on yourself.

You have a good, healthy sense of right and wrong. Don't change that. The world needs more people like us! You are not an enabler and I admire that in you!
Hurry back, ok?
<font color=blue>Don't die with your music still inside you.</font color=blue>
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.