I feel like a mess. I slept most of the day today and now I am awake much later than I have been in a long time (with the help of lots of caffeine.) I feel numb and alone. I wonder what the point of it all is. Every time I sleep I have nightmares and wake up feeling worse. I know it is related to my depression. I'm scared that I will start getting worse, and I wont notice and neither will anyone around me since I recently moved. I don't trust anyone to be able to tell them. And with my new T, I don't trust her enough yet, and don't know if she would notice. I feel like a mess. I didn't know moving was going to be this hard.