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Originally Posted by googley
I feel like a mess. I slept most of the day today and now I am awake much later than I have been in a long time (with the help of lots of caffeine.) I feel numb and alone. I wonder what the point of it all is. Every time I sleep I have nightmares and wake up feeling worse. I know it is related to my depression. I'm scared that I will start getting worse, and I wont notice and neither will anyone around me since I recently moved. I don't trust anyone to be able to tell them. And with my new T, I don't trust her enough yet, and don't know if she would notice. I feel like a mess. I didn't know moving was going to be this hard.   |
Hey my dearest friend....
Now you know about the caffiene... The more you take before bed, the more your brain is going to continue to work.. The brain Never sleeps. And with caffiene added your brains going go into hyper mode.
Which will of course heighten those nasty dreams
Getting up worse is because you're brain did not sleep but continued to try and work things up - yet the brain get all the days stimulation all combined into a big ugly mixed mess.
It is a complete bummer moving, changing, trusting, - But moving MUST be in your destiny...
Some kind of change... Forcing you to Not remain Idle.
You've got ALOT on your plate... new house, new neighbors, new therapist.
And TRUST is a major major issue.
The only one I would be concerned with now is the relationship between you and your therapist.
Hope this helped a bit
